" Call it Deja Vu"
i am young and i am old /
i am rich and i am poor
i feel like i've been on this earth many times before/
-Teena Marie
.....I heard somewhere at some point in time, maybe in a movie, that when a person has Deja vu it means they are exactly where they are supposed to be. I have deja vu on a daily basis, more than I've ever had it before. I can't believe this is my life.....who-da-thunk-it. Lil ole Tracie from the dirty south would hit the big city and make it her own.
I used to be a queen you know/
On an island by the sea/
With rainbow coloured people
/Hah!/ Happy as can be/
We never had a problem/
There never was a care/
the love was everflowing and it's feeling shared
: And I can feel this 4 sure.........
... Did I really go on four fabulous dates in one week. Did I really hit a black film festival at one of Chicago's hottest clubs with FREE ADMISSION, OPEN BAR, FREE popcorn? Have I really sat on the Chicago river on a breezy night at the Westin Hotel while hits that Djs would never play in the south blaze in the background with countless buildings lighting the Chicago night sky? Do I really have that apartment with the inner city view to die for? ...Is it just me or it is Deja vu?
My soul feels like a universe/
the baskin never ends/
stars to me are children/
babies are my friends /
My heart is like a galaxy/
In my spirit flies/
I've helped this way a million times/
please don't ask me why/
The question of my lifetime/
you've asked my point of view/
They say it all was karma/
Call it deja vu/
: And i can feel this for sure...........
....I've heard that a dream starts with a vision. Every year before school would start I'd be stoked. I had an exact vision of how I wanted my year to go. Middle school it was all about boys and scoring my first french kiss....and so it was.
...In high school it was to stop being a lardass and become more social and LIVE....and so it was.
...IN college it was to have a unique and amazing ,yet typical in a good way, college experience.....and so it was.
...Now I am a twenty something and my vision was to live smack dab in the middle of downtown and not take one second of it for granted. To live like I could be one of the patients in the ICU I work in at any moment........................AND SO IT IS.
If hate is on your mind and u can't give up the crime/
Anger is your friend/
Don't u know when u die
don't u know u will come back again/
In the master's plan,
you will come back woman or man.
If your life is full of sin
don't u know when u die u will come back again!
....Am I that girl?...the one that got the job she wanted and pinned for? Am I that girl that has the opportunity to be a condo owner of a downtown loft before the age of 25? The big bootie girl from middle school, the badass always in detention in elementary school, or the wacky volleyball manager in high school that didn't quite have respect for authority. This feels familiar this happiness, the self contentment, the excitement, the fear, newness....
In the words of Teena Marie All I know is that " I can feel it for sure, I've been here before."
